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Where my Spirit Is NOW: What I can confirm

Since I came out today, I figured it is only fitting to organize what I do believe since detaching my tentacles from the organized religion of Christianity. Here is what I do believe, with no evidence, just feeling what my spirit feels:

  • I feel there is a Creator. Actually I choose to believe this because I cannot wrap my head around any kind of notion that the beauty we find in nature, children, love, and the connections of spirit with others  is just by happenstance or evolving biologically. There is no way this just "is". I can't tolerate that concept. There is something bigger than this universe that has taken time to deliberately paint flowers, design body systems, and provide emotions. That I feel in my spirit for SURE. 
  • I feel the closest spiritually to my creator when I am in nature. When the sounds and music of nature are playing I can almost tear up for the sheer beauty of it all. I feel healing happen naturally in nature. 
  • I believe that when someone is happy and wholly healthy, good things begin to happen. That doesn't mean someone they love won't die,or they won't get cancer no matter how healthy they are. Life is a cycle of seasons, beginnings and endings, and learning how to navigate those dips and valleys are what this journey is about.
  • I believe we were gifted with an amazing system of intelligence, wit, and mental strength. No matter the chips against it through life experiences or lack of knowledge and growth, I believe these minds are capable of making choices and decisions, and accepting consequences. I firmly believe this. I believe you choose who to marry, divorce, have kids with, settle with, befriend, and unfriend. I believe our choices affect each other, especially those in our familial/close-knit circles. I also believe that yes, there are times when all the right things are at the right places at the right time, but also that we don't always get it right the first time, and that people change, and that maturity flux is real. We are all individually journeying and can't all be at the same point of growth at the same time, and  it can take some time to figure that out. It also is very important to know WHAT to do when you do realize that. You either grow, or you go.
  • I believe Jesus the Christ in the Bible is an amazing influence. He truly exemplified how humans should act towards each other. Paul the preacher and disciple of Christ also talks on "Fruits of the Spirit" and how to follow "a more excellent way" in loving behavior towards others and really disciplining the Spirit for good. 
  • I study Scripture because overall I believe it is a darn good resource for good living. I mean, it teaches you how to be an honorable person. Don't you think our society could use more of it? I base my teaching in parenting off of many things in the Bible as well. 
  • I believe reproducing is natural and nothing to be messed with, tampered with, cut off, limited, or "controlled." I believe that when so much energy is put into NOT reproducing it REALLY limits and inhibits the amazing joy that can be found in sex. 
  • I believe that in not wasting what we've been given, in being resourceful, and being grateful in all things we can build amazing character and leadership. 
  • I DEFINITELY believe in channeling pain and heartbreak into giving back to others going through that as well. We are all involved in this cycle of humanity and we should never ignore the needy, the hurting, and the hopeless. I believe in grace.
  • I believe that we're too hard on each other. 
  • I believe in letting go...of love. Letting go is very risky but it's also very healing. Let go of some love today and give it away.
  • I believe that Mother Teresa, Mahatma Gandi, Martin Luther, and Dr. Martin Luther King were some of the most amazing leaders and displayed much character by speaking out, extending a hand of fellowship across barriers, and living simply but powerfully.
  • It WILL all turn out okay if you're going FORWARD.
  • The WHOLE body is very important. Mind, body and spirit must be tended to wholly and that disease of the mind or body is dependent upon the lack of health of another area of the trichotomy.
  • Having children is healing. Being a parent is a spiritual experience. It will either break you down and make you bitter or make you stronger and make you better. I am grateful for the chance of parenting.
  • I love to worship. Worship is the honoring and revering of a Being (in my case) and their work. I can worship God, the Creator through nursing, praying, meditating on Scripture or a similar resource, being grateful, asking for guidance and peace, sitting and being quiet looking outside, journaling, playing music, listening to music, lifting my hands, crying, being joyful. I am so glad to be alive. I am an act of worship when I do things that uplift others and bring them joy, healing, and peace. I worship through mothering, being a wife, being a cook, and by exercising my body to keep it well.
  • I choose not to discriminate. My brother Jesus Christ was not a discriminator of the lowly, deranged, sad, broken, hurt, adulterous, or homosexual I believe. I choose to love and treat others with grace, not a self-righteous stick to prick all the sin out of them. Not saying others do that but that's how I have viewed discrimination, as something being wrong with someone and the rest of us treating them with a long-handled spoon to make sure it doesn't spill onto us. Jesus got dirty. 
  • I recently saw a picture of a missionary holding children from Haiti who were naked. There is nothing more vulnerable or beautiful than being naked. Trusting that others won't hurt you in that state is sheerly amazing. That picture spoke to me and said that when I am open, vulnerable, and exposed, those that love me will hold me and not hurt me. And I need to do the same with others.
  • I believe in doing the right thing because your integrity is at stake, and integrity is very important to other people valuing your work. Doing the right thing because it's right is very big in my book.
  • Love my Creator and God, love my neighbors/brothers/sisters, and love myself. These are the big guidelines I live by. I also strive to treat others and THINK of others how I want to be treated and thought of. I have been a very judgmental person in the past and it's really not fair. Because people do change and are constantly changing. I exercise hope in that we are all pushing for the greater good in our relationships, our health, and in sustaining our Earth. 
I am on this journey and I am accepting of it. I pray that I will continue to grow in wisdom and in seeking TRUTH. Jesus Christ said "The truth will set you free." No, I am not a modern-day Christian by the books, but I definitely gain from Christ's example, leadership, life, and legacy. And I'm not ashamed to say that I'm still growing! I am seeking who God is, what God is like, how God moves and creates. I pray that my development will bring hope, peace, and sustenance throughout the rest of this life I'm grateful to be living.
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