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I Can't

I wonder why
It takes so long
To figure out
If you are
New

I never doubted
Years before
You were an anchor
The only, True

I wonder if
Now is the time
To ask my heart
To get
In line

But the only
Deep regret
Is what we missed
Were some
Good times

I really wonder
It it's true
Because I can't
Find if
It's you
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